Excruciating Pain: My Struggle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a overcast Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden sensation sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by quick jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition often begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually start with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another found 64% of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like several causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They linked the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing texts suggest unusual treatments for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In 1998, scientists released the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.

National guidance on management recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known people.

But leading specialists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent episodes are handled with acute treatment only. Longer or more intense bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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Daniel Ruiz
Daniel Ruiz

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